Health. A matrix
of jewelled afternoons,

hard shadows on glazed snow,
the sun, splintering, through evergreens.

Such definition. Exhilaration
a quick lick of blue light, and wind

like raw silk in the lungs
on the trails, thighs powdering through drifts

or gliding over the rhythmic slither-hiss and glass
clicks where waxed edges plough the small ice

lace, and bunched, roughed up snow goes by like the white rush
in a speedboat’s wake and the breath is pulled in or measured out

by body heat, stoked and banked in its nest of layered cottons
and polyester skins, until the everyday word chains clear

off and I can see how language is an architecture
of knives scissoring this from that, I from my structured

muscled bone, we from they, and everything else
from the world in which it lives, a habit I learned

when my pulse abandoned childhood, a contract
with factual destinies that hang like snow packs

over the landscapes we cruise through
so easily we forget to ask how we got them

around us, or how we can leave them
out of our dreams.

What an astonishing article. Yet somehow I’ve always known all that, including having had a “dropped-off body-mind” experience (although at the time I didn’t know that’s what it was). I had the experience one day many years ago when I asked God a simple question (while in the shower, if you can imagine that). I asked, “What is existence?” And damn if He didn’t answer me. Unfortunately I wasn’t prepared mentally or emotionally for the incredibly overwhelming experience and so I only have a memory of having had the experience (meta-memory, I suppose). I do not remember anything from the revelatory experience itself (and there may be nothing to remember except that, as you’ve pointed out many times, existence is all interconnected). But I do remember that I was absolutely convinced I totally understood what all of existence was, and I felt it was a kind of “knowing” that I assumed could be remembered. I wept bitterly for hours after I realized my focus on the emotional nature of the experience caused me to forget (actually ignore by virtue of my placing my focus elsewhere) what had been revealed. I felt I had wasted an unimaginably valuable gift that many have spent their whole lives trying to acquire. And for me it all happened in a matter of a few seconds. Thank you for reminding me of one of the main reasons I undertook Holosync meditation. I very much would like to have that experience again, but this time be better prepared for it.

Thanks for posting what you said.

Just began reading this post and the first paragraph pretty much summed up what I’ve been experiencing…

“All ideas dissolve–ALL ideas. Ideas, premises, beliefs, theories, maps of reality, are seen as inconsequential, insubstantial, uninteresting, beside the point. Instead, there’s just an infinitely deep peace, a vast expansiveness, a deep and profound knowingness about the essence of it all–and, the realization that all of this is who you are.”

I’ve adopted this way of being recently and I thought it was indifference and shutting the planet out , but this didn’t make any sense. I’m deeply content but find it increasingly difficult to even envision let alone give an opinion about anything. It’s like what is the point. I find myself laughing internally to myself everytime I am in a conversation and feel prompted to add something but the desire to do so dissipates. I find myself just listening to others and being ok with that. That which I had to work at before seems to just occur naturally now. It used to worry me how people reacted to what they perceived as indifference. Now there is just a feeling of ok.
So anyway I thought I would post back. I’ve just started awakening 3 and resistance breaks through in days rather than weeks. I’m looking forward to future growth and new experiences.
My deepest gratitude for the profound difference that you and Holosync technology have made in my life.

FROM BILL: Of course we are not touting Holosync as a cure for Aspergers, first of all. We may be doing some clinical studies soon about that and a number of other conditions about which we’ve had extensive positive feedback from customers over the years.

My son has used Holosync, though not regularly. When he has used it I have seen remarkable changes in the short term (he’s depressed and won’t speak to anyone, he listens for 30 minutes and his entire mood changes, for instance). The longer-term effect that I would expect would require more regular use (which you are motivating me to make happen).

We do have quite a bit of feedback from people who have used Holosync with autistic kids (including teenagers and young adults) and the feedback is quite encouraging–less acting out, better language skills, more calmness, more eye contact, and so on.

I would not hesitate to get relatives suffering from something in the Aspergers spectum to use Holosync, as I suspect that it will be very helpful. Let me know what happens.

I just had an experience this evening that I want to share with you and your readers. I have been experiencing the “dark nite of the soul,” where I felt I was in “nothingness” – the void. I doubted everything, every belief system, and even your teachings, Bill.

I decided to confide to my mother about my depression. She was frantic and quickly said, “Did you call your doctor for medication,” and so on. I understand a mother’s concern, but we as a culture are soon to cover up anything that is unpleasant. Depression is so unacknowledged; maybe that is why some of us have to carry this shadow. How quickly we’re told it is not ok. How soon we pathologize it and want to medicate, suffocate this so-called demon. It such an invalidation to me, saying that I’m not ok. I am ok even when depression has me in its grips.

I decided to voice dialog with the mature and immature depression using Genpo Roshi’s technique. It was powerful. Oh, how I love awakening!

Namaste,

Cassandra

I think it’s a useful tool.

I also don’t think it is an end-all to anything.

Be honest with yourself, respect yourself and your experiences and read some books by Shakti Gawain – and you’ll save yourself some money and frustration.

Enjoy life and be of service to others.

Period.
xoxo
e

FROM BILL: Holosync increases awareness. Lack of awareness underlies all the problems of life THAT YOU CAN DO SOMETHING ABOUT (there are plenty you can’t do anything about). Meditation makes you more aware. Holosync meditation makes you MUCH more aware, and does it faster. I have never said that Holosync is an “end-all.” There is no end-all. Holosync does, however, make the user much happier, much more peaceful inside, much clearer mentally, and much more aware. That’s actually quite a lot.