FROM BILL: I understand your discouragement and disappointment. This, however, isn’t the forum to address this (in an extended answer to your post). I would suggest that you find the Special Report we sent you as part of the support letters entitled How to Tell If Something is Happening. That may give you some insight. If you call support, ask for Marc Gilson, who is director of customer service.

Not knowing you, anything I say is speculation, but the usual reasons for this are 1) reality not intersecting with expectations–expecting something that doesn’t happen; 2) a strong connection between the way you organize your world (your beliefs, ideas, premises, emotional strategies) and your feelings of safety–if you strongly need to hang onto your current way of navigating the world (because there was significant emotional–or even physical–danger in your childhood), you may successfully resist the changes that are trying to happen (which is why they say keep going, because Holosync will “win” eventually because it’s stronger than your ability to resist); or, plenty is happening, but you just don’t see it–this is VERY common, culmunating in a sudden realization that all along things were happening and why couldn’t I see it? (I have received many letters from people telling me this.

Go find that Special Report (it might also be on our website–I don’t remember) and call Marc. I want you to succeed with this.

Thanks and best wishes,
Michael.

Thanks and best wishes,
Michael.

FROM BILL: Watching means being aware of something. When you are aware of something, you have choice about it. Don’t get so balled up in trying to get somewhere with it. The idea here is that there are certain things you do automatically and unconsciously, and as long as you do them without awareness, they’ll keep happening in the same way, automatically. In that case, you keep getting the same results. If you weren’t aware of your body, it would move automatically, and you wouldn’t have any choice about how you move. You are aware of your body, though, so you can choose to move it in certain ways. A trained athlete is probably MORE aware of his or her body that you are, and can move it more skillfully–ie, with more choice.

If you’re like most people, you are only partly aware of your emotions, and probably totally unaware of what YOU DO inside to create them (make certain internal representations that then lead to certain feelings). So, you need to observe your internal representations, the pictures you make in your head and what you say to yourself, and see how these things create your feelings. Until you do that, your feelings will “just happen.” But watch how you DO your feelings, and you’ll gain choice over them.

The same with your thoughts. Become more aware of them, and you’ll have more choice about them. You’ll begin to notice when you are focusing on what you don’t want, which leads to bad feelings, a loss of motivation, and taking actions that usually aren’t resourceful. When you become aware of and watch your thoughts, you gain choice over them. Since your thoughts create your world this is a pretty good thing to have choice over.

Watching your breath when meditating is great practice. Part of doing so is noticing when you aren’t focused on your breath, when your attention goes to your thoughts, your body, or something you hear. Noticing that is witnessing.

Quit worrying about whatever you think is supposed to happen and just watch.

M.K

FROM BILL: Holosync makes you more aware. When you become more aware, a certain amount of what you become aware of is the negative shit you’ve repressed and disowned. Now it might seem like a good thing that is was repressed, but it isn’t, because when it’s repressed it expresses itself anyway, but in a covert and dysfunctional way. Becoming aware of it allows it to “mature,” as Zen master Genpo Roshi says, from something that creates suffering for you and for others into something beneficial.

What you need to do at this point is to watch all these feelings very carefully. Pretend that you’re a scientist, and you’ve been waiting for this to happen so you could observe it. Just paying attention to how the feelings appear in your body–where, in what way, to what degree–will create a huge shift, but in addition to that also observe what you say to yourself while you are having them (or before you have them), and what internal pictures happen before and during them.

There is a direct, causative connection between your internal dialog and the pictures you make inside, and what feelings are created. Your feelings are created by your internal representations. Right now these internal representations happpen automatically in response to certain triggers (something triggers you into thinking about your family, for instance, which starts a chain reaction of internal representations). The thing is, you have a choice about what internal representations to make, IF you are aware enough. If you see yourself making the internal representations that cause you to feel resentful, and doing that doesn’t serve you, you won’t be able to keep doing it. If, though, you are UNaware of what you’re doing (which is the case with almost everyone), some pre-set way of making these IRs will just run automatically.

So when you become aware of HOW you are creating the feelings, and you watch yourself do it, as it happens, you just can’t keep doing it. Any enthusiasm or motivation to keep doing it just falls away. This is the main value of Holosync–it makes you more aware. At first it seems that this awareness is just of a lot of stuff you don’t want to be aware of–the stuff you’ve disowned or repressed. But this stuff is affecting you anyway, and because it’s repressed it affects you much more negatively. Watch it with awareness and it matures into something good.

So the feelings you have about your family are something you DO, and you do them by the IRs you make. Make them unconsciously and automatically and you’ll probably keep making the same ones and keep having the same feelings. Become aware of how you make them, and the feelings will probably stop happening. The same with your problems with your wife: how you feel and how you behave originate inside your head, with certain internal processes (most of which involve IRs). Most people do all of this without awareness, which is why they keep creating the same problems over and over. Do it with awareness, though, and you find it impossible to keep doing it, IF it doesn’t serve you.

So, yes, this stuff will resolve itself. The more you are able to step aside and watch it, with awareness, as if you were keenly curious about it all, the faster that will happen. I will tell you that whatever happens will be SO worth it, as you will see. Have you taken advantage of our support staff? I highly recommend it. 503 672 7117 between 9:30 and 5:00 Pacific time, M-F.

I love your posts and all that you are doing.

Best,

FROM BILL: Quite frankly, this seems like a lot of beliefs, not something you know from experience. And, you are misinterpreting what I am saying. The “you” you think you are is just and idea. Just as your idea of a potato isn’t a potato, but rather a representations (in your mind) of a potato, your idea of “you” isn’t who you really are. You are really the infinite relationships that connect “you” to everything. In reality, there is one thing, not many, one event, not many. It is handy to pretend that there is a separate you–in other words, it is useful to HAVE a separate self, just as you have any other useful idea, but when you mistake the idea for the reality you create all kinds of suffering for yourself, and for others.

I would suggest DOUBTING all your ideas, and especially the idea lf “me.”

FROM BILL: This is not meant to be a place where you get support for Holosync. These questions are answered in the FAQ we send to all users, or call our support coaches at 503 672-7117.

Mick.

FROM BILL: Not everyone knows about it, yet. They will, though. You can help out by telling everyone you know. In fact, everyone readig this: don’t keep this a secret. Tell everyone about Holosync. They will thank you once they’ve used it awhile.

Connie